we happened to talk about the article that "Leading the way" from NEWSWEEK.
the article is about women who are leading the world.
what I got impressed was ...

one time I got C in school. and my father said "in this house you come in with an A or an F. you have to be either the best of the best or the best of the worst. But never mediocre


some might disagree with it, but I agree. it reminds me of how I compromise every day about tagalog, my study. because I always think na Im not good at english compared to other class mates so it cant be helped not to be able to express well, to write paper, get so-so grade.

nooooooooooooooooo! I dont want that. I should always do the best. or I should always aim at getting A. it doesnt mean na I must be grade-conscious person. pero I dont want to be so-so good studnet, dont want to have so-so good life.

it must be really good, nice.

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back in highshool, I always had that spirit na always try to be NO.1. as time past, I lost that spirit somehow. then I turned out to be normal, soso student.


the rest of the time i can spend in the philippines is only 3months, which I still have a chance to seek the best although it is short. kaya yan! kaya yan!

those kinds of thoughts just came up to me....

after I studied a bit sa lib, I went home by walking.

dumaan ako sa La Vista gate. may mga guard men doon. sabi nila sa akin, Happy Birthday! I was a bit confused at the same time so surprised. kasi my BD is on Saturday. siguro they misunderstood my BD. kaya sabi ko sa sabado po ay kaawaran ko.

anyway they are that sweet to me, and it made me smile. was it nice di ba? whenever I pass by that gate, they say to me na gud morning or gud evening, so I also respond to them. it is such a small thing, but it is amazing na such a small thing can make me happy.

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Im really happy to have such a nice end of the day.
see, it was actually better to walk, no? rather than you give me a ride, haha.

thank you for god>

Current Mood: content

I received email from my mom that my dad got cancer sa lung daw... I knew that he has been coughing more that 1 month.
I really have to call in Japan tlga.

one problem was gone and another problem is coming and more...
yesterday night, I finally talked and found the problem with host mom. so, OK NOW.

again one problem was gone, but another is coming...
I think I have to concentrate on what I need to do during this exchange program.

isa pa. my hole sa ear is almost closed, sigh... so sayang><


anyway it is really difficult to get along with people.
I really miss Japan...

Current Mood: depressed

today I attended Manila Tour with Dr. ??? (I forgot her name but she is the academic vice president), Teruha and Belgian.

although I have already visited those places where we visited today, I felt I improved my English!! because surprisingly, I could communicate well with them. I am really shy specially with the persons I met the first time, you know. pero today I was not.

so I hope it is the first step to overcome my shyness...
then one more good thing is ...

when I said that I wanna come back here to get the job, she(vice president) promised that she will help me looking for the job. I wanna believe her saying, haha.

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I almost finish the book"five people you meet in the heaven"
but i need to reread again to understand completely kasi daming words that I dont know... I really need to read books to learn vocabulary...

Current Mood: calm

just 5 months past since I came in the philippines. it means I am at the turn point. the time I can enjoy here is only 5 months...

2nd semester is about to start. My grade was ok lng. I am feeling parang I just follow the time passing like an arrow. I dont live the present, something like that...

my closest friend gonna go back to Japan from Australia this month. when I imagine the day I leave for the airport, I become so down. peso, one of my friends said that you have to face the reality. Japan is not so bad unlike you imagine. You should look forward to going back to Japan. it is partly true, yata.My life here in the philippines is totally different from the one in Japan.

I cant stick to only one environment. I always have to adjust myself to each environment. being apart from people whom I cherish. pero sana it makes me stronger.

I need to think more about it.

Current Location: room
Current Mood: blank

now Im really enjoying the semester break.
I just came back from ASEC trip and I go to Bicol soon.

during these days, I had a lot of arguments w/ sel, which I have never experienced since I was born... siguro japanese dont get accustomed to arguing with others, specially me.
siyempre I felt some bitterness from it pero I learned a lot at the same time.

Im lucky to have a person who can point out my faults.

kanina my mom called on me. Finally I said that I got pierrce.. Her reaction was ok pero my dad was.... you can imagine easily di ba?

anyway tomorrow enchanted kingdom>

the first semester is about to finish. pero may exam pa ako althogh it is isa lang. tapos pinakamahirap ito....

kanina I listed up what i want to do during sem break, haha, which I always do in Japam also. it was fun.

OMG Wednesday na! I have to go back to study><
5more nights 5 more nights!!!

Finally my parents came to the philippines!! pero 3days lang... I thought that it was not so big deal for me. but I was actually so excited..

then I talked a lot w/ them for 5hours!! to make up 4months long distance. then what I noticed is that my parents are my parents(i think it doesnt make any sense...). whenever I have problems, troubles, they give me advice which always slove my troubles.

my mom said: nothing is meaningless, useless in your life. Even if you get lost now, it has some meaning for u. so, just do as well as you can what given to you. then the way will open to you gradually.

tama!!! di ba?


4mouths already passed since I came to philippines.Time passed so fast. I have to live every moment, thats what I learned from parents and kuli. I noticed that almost all of my problems are about future or past, not present. I can't say it is meaningless to be worried about future and to regret about the past, pero since the future is uncertain, which nobody predicts and the past is already gone....

I am really lucky because I can realize what I really have to do now.